Confliction

Wow - two posts in one week. I am on a roll!

I feel as though I am at a crossroads. I have this great job at The University of Tennessee. I enjoy what I do, working with the students and helping out where I can. I love education so much, it is such a joy to be in an institution of learning.

We found out in March that Boss-man had taken another position at a different university. I am very happy for him and feel that it is a great move for him! He is taking his girlfriend/fiance with him - who also happens to work in our office. So, there is two gone.
Fashonista, who works at the front desk is leaving us to go to Law school in Washington, DC (yaaaaaaaaaaaay!). So, there is three gone.

NOW - and nothing is ever definite - one of our other employees who shall remain nicknameless may be leaving their post here at UGP for another job. That would be four. That is pretty much 1/3 of our office all gone in a 3 month span.

While I am SOSOSO happy for all of them and for moving up in the world towards their dream jobs, it really stinks. I am going to be purely selfish and whiny for a moment and say:

What the hell am I going to do?!?! I know, I know... what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, but I honestly think that this might kill me. I am in no way qualified to take over either position OR train someone new in those positions. Ugh... I am very nervous. It is making my stomach churn. Which is not good... I have enough stomach churning issues going on as it is.

Is this the perfect time for me to cut my losses and leave? I have only been here a little over a year. As I was walking Sophie this morning, I couldn't help but think - wow! You have been in this apartment for a YEAR! That is the longest I have lived in any place for at least... *counting on fingers*... 6 years? I lived in an apt. in Houston, TX for 2 years. That is my record. Before that... my parent's house when I was in High School. Oy.
Am I that unsettled? Can't stay in any place too long? Maybe it was the inconsistencies of my last career - on the road 50/52 weeks of the year. Always in a new place. Living out of my car and in hotels.

I have options of places to go. I have friends all over the country. Yet, i can't decide. I would like to go back to school - in fact I just bought 2 huge and expensive books on the GRE and plan to take it in the fall. Working here at UT gives me the option of FREE tuition! I get 9 credit hours a semester of tuition coverage. That's 3 classes!

Am I being overdramatic? Probably.
Should I wait it out to see what happens? Probably.
Should I start applying for new jobs? Probably.